Hindsight is 20/20
So I started reading a new book last night. It's just a piece of fiction; nothing noteworthy. Yet it startled me. There is a character in this book who is having an affair with her college professor. Note that I said affair. See, he was blatantly married, and she knew it. What startled me was how the relationship she had with her professor eerily mirrored the "relationship" I had with The Loser. The only exception is that in the book, the professor actually seemed to care about her. Maybe even genuinely liked her. Things The Loser didn't feel for me. Anyway, it kinda got me to thinking just how deceptive The Loser might have been. Even at the time, I always felt he was hiding things from me. I always felt like I was doing something I wasn't supposed to be doing. I guess I just decided that I was making more of these feelings than there really was to it. But it still ate away at the back of my mind. Now that I see it from a totally different perspective, I know that he was being deceptive. I mean really deceptive. I really don't want to analyze how deep the deception might have been because I know I would only end up feeling like shit. I would beat myself up for something that I didn't create. I would end up owning his deception and lies, and I refuse to ever own anything of his again. He is truly an immoral person, and I am not responsible for his vile actions. I think I'll just chalk it up to a lesson in misplaced trust well learned.tirade by Jenster at
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